My life is the definition of a roller coaster. Just when I thought things were going well, they came crashing down, every time. I definitely hit my lowest point in life, lost a ton of weight, then gained a ton of weight. Im currently stuck in the hardest situation ever. Im in a relationship that has been through so much shit and is held together by hanging shreds. He hurt me, so much, I don’t treat him right, but yet we can’t leave each other. I don’t even know if I love him anymore. I’ve done things that I would say I would never do if I loved him. I just don’t know how to be happy with him anymore, it seems so fake. I’m at a point where every single thing, even the way he breathes, annoys me. I can’t get myself out. I know it’s the choice i have to make. I can’t be with him forever even though we talk about the kids we are going to have. It’s like one moment I’m smiling and we are laughing and the next it’s all serious and he’s so fucking stubborn. I can’t take it. It makes me miserable but I’m addicted. I can’t do it. I can’t leave. Someone help me..
Hey y’all. so this summer has been such a battle. i’ve lost weight and I’m at peace with my body. I’m trying to figure out my shit and my relationship.
i leave for vacation with my boyfriend so soon! I’ve never been out of the country before in Europe! i’m exciteddddd
sorry guys. you have no idea what i’ve been to deal with this past month. I had no idea my summer was gonna turn out this way.
If you wanna know my life drama that should be a reality tv show don’t hesitate to ask. i don’t want to put it completely public though.
but through this whole process, i’ve realized i’m weaker than i thought. i’m not mentally strong enough to go through with things i wish i could do, things that would make me happier.
back to eating normally again and eating a lot more food. i definitely went through a little depression before. now i’m just trying to sort my life out. i know that i’m wrong in my choice to stay with him after he had sex with a girl the next day after he broke up with me after we were dating for almost a year. but now i can do whatever i want in our open relationship.
As you can see I’m going through soooo much right now. I need to get my life in check and my ex/ boyfriend
Brb. I promise
I can’t do this. Please make the pain stop
One day it’s good, he reassures me, the next, he’s blowing up at me and saying have a good life. I can’t take it anymore. I’m going to break. I’m already broken. I don’t know how to pick my pieces up. I can’t eat or sleep. I lay in my bed last night awake from 1:30am- 5am. I can’t live like this. I just can’t. Someone please help me.
Breakfast- coffee, 1/2 banana
Lunch- 3 bites apple, 1/2 C egg whites with spinach
Dinner- tiny plate of pineapple and water melon
Lunch- apple (at 2pm)
Dinner- plain salad with mixed greens, strawberries, tomato and cucumber
When I’m upset I can’t eat, which is obviously shown above.
Don’t mind my posts before. He made a mistake, regretted it and wanted me back. That’s all I wanted.
We’re good for each other. I know it.
Well… Now I’m single. I feel so lost. 9 months with someone so close is so hard to move on from. One day you’re smiling and everything is fine. The next day you’re sobbing and pleading for him to come back to you because you were that stupid to ruin things.
My mind is blank. I got 0 hours of sleep. I’m about to take, aka fail, a 2 hour test. My stomach is growling so hard but I can’t stomach any food. My eyes hurt everytime I blink from crying so hard. My heart oh gosh don’t even get my started. My heart is numb but at the same time burning with a firey pain so deep it’s sinking into my stomach. The butterflies won’t stop swirling around. I’m trying to study for my test, but words just go in and out and all I can think is will he ever take me back.
Breakfast: coffee, apple, 1/4C of cereal (bar bras shredded spoonfuls) (200 cal)
Lunch: multigrain quesadilla w/ 1/4C cheese, spinach, tomato, plain grilled chicken (200 cal)
Snack: cereal, 1/2 fiber one bar (200)
Dinner: white mean chicken, 3/4 C brown rice (200 cal)
that’s all I can’t even eat i’m too upset…
Just please kill me. My heart is being torn out and smashed into a million pieces right now. I’m not okay.