Update.

I’m slowly working out more and more, except i’m seeing little progress. all i see is fat surrounding my muscles and bones. whenever i move it bunches up and i feel disgusting. omg.

Hi

Just a quick update.. I’ve started running a little again. i’m working my way up when the weather gets a little better. As for the sweets, not so good though, my boyfriend loves to bring back cookies and junk. it’s so hard to have self-control when he and everyone else is eating them too…

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Doing better…

I’m taking one day at a time, one step at a time. Life’s too short to dwell on the past. We have to move forward.

I’m hoping I can focus my time more on things like working out and eating well. That makes me really happy.

depressed

I’m surrounded by a pile of tissues right now. the tears cannot stop flowing out of my eyes. it’s uncontrollable. I’m so unhappy. I wish i could bang my head as hard as i could against a wall right now. i wish i could just die and that would hurt him the most when he looses someone he loves. i could never leave him though because i love him so much but this is just such a bad relationship. i want it to work so badly. i want him. i want to be happy. i wish i didn’t feel these thoughts that i wanted to die so badly. i just want to be gone so i don’t have to deal with this anymore. so maybe people would look back and think that they missed me. maybe my boyfriend would look back and wished that he comforted me more than he did and maybe then things would be different. 

i wish there was a way of kiling myself that didn’t result in me being crazy or taken to a psychiatrist. my boyfriend always judges those girls and i know i should be one of them but i’m too afraid to tell anyone or get help :’(

please help me? 

sick :(

it’s been a rough few days. i’ve been really sick and haven’t been able to eat much. i went home from college and my mom is making me eat only white breads and crackers because i have a stomach bug. it’s day 3 so far. hopefully i’m better by valentines day! <3

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Panorama / パノラマ by TANAKA Juuyoh (田中十洋) on Flickr.

Intake 2/5/13

Breakfast: whole wheat bagel (with middle breading taken out), eggs, canadian bacon, cantaloupe, vegan granola

Snack: pineapple, 100calorie pop corn

Dinner: zucchini with vegan meat pasta sauce, vegan granola, lettuce w/ zucchini, chickpeas and tomatoes

Dessert: 1 vegan mini cookie, vegan cookie bread/cake slice, some peanut m&m’s

I guess today’s intake wasn’t as much junk and sugar as other days. I can definitely see a difference in my eating when i write it down because it looks like so much more on the screen than what i’m counting in my head. I’m gonna do this everyday to keep track

Workout 2/4/13

LAMEEE

  • lots and lots of crunches (wasn’t counting)
  • 20 push ups

Seriously, i told you guys it was lame….

I. Love. Him.

Love is such a hard feeling to explain. How do you know you love someone? Do you love him? Or just love the fact that you have someone who loves you?

I love him. He is my everything. My world revolves around him. Every minute, every second he crosses my mind. I’m so lucky to be able to call such an amazing guy like him my boyfriend. He completes me. I’ve never found anyone before who completed me. Before him, I could never be myself around a guy, but with him, I let all boundaries loose. I’m not usually one to completely open up with someone, but with him it’s different. Whether it’s doing a silly little dance or making funny noises, I can be my complete self around him. I don’t have to hold back a single thing. And the best part is he knows all my secrets and I know his. He’s my best friend. I can talk to him about anything, tell him anything, get advice. He’s always there for me and I’ll always be there for him. 

Love is just that. Happiness, smiles, cuddles, kisses, tears, sex, hand holding, back rubbing, head stroking, arm stroking, footsie, hugs.

لا ترى العين عيبا.. اذا أحب القلب قلبا

mahmoudakamooka:

The eye does not see a flaw if the heart loves a heart.